Afraid that someone will need to use this room and kick me out if it. Weirdly paranoid that someone is going to peer in the windows at me. Worried that the room is too small or too cluttered or full of stale energy. Aware that I still have no idea what I'm doing. Excited to do training two days in a row. Excited to have time alone. Contemplative Practice (10 minutes):
Meditated, lights out, eyes closed, half lotus, back up against the wall to feel strength in my back. Tried to balance energetic focus in space between eyes.
Allergist called. Bloodwork has determined that I am not allergic to shellfish! Will eat shrimp tonight to test it.
Warm-Up (15 minutes):
Turned on camera (closer to it than usual in this small room). Arranged cluttered room to make a better shot. Cold. Ran back and forth on diagonal of room, talking non-stop, inner monologue. Did a lot of shaking - hands, arms, shoulders. Thought about tension as apparati of capture in the body, how to break it apart. Rubbed skin with hands to warm and awaken it. Jumped up and down. Did headstand and shoulder stand.
Training (40 minutes):
Did push ups on wall and on floor. Sang through "When the River Meets the Sea."
Danced to a song that someone was singing in the hallway.
Did modified cat/cow and sun salutations while singing.
Moved while speaking about the difference between cause and cure. Moved while speaking about Plato/Derrida's pharmakon.
Got quiet at the end. Moved slowly and sensually.
Caressed self.
Did rocking motions in a variety of positions.
Video card on camera ran out of space so the last 10 minutes were undocumented. I turned out the lights and continued working. I enjoy a bit of unrecorded training time.
Note-taking (5 minutes):
Sat in room, where I'd meditated at the beginning of the session and jotted down notes. Wrote Tiny Imaginary Play #4 (click here to read)
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